For those of us who have a real live, honest to goodness, life changing relationship with Jesus, we have felt the grace of God as He forgave us of our sins when we were saved.
I'll never forget the moment I opened my heart to Jesus. I poured out my heart and soul to Him, confessed my sinfullness and laid before Him my trespasses up to that point in my life and the ones to come.
Moments later I felt light. All of the burden of my sin had been lifted.
Then one day I was overcome with guilt. Satan had tricked me into believing that I had not been forgiven and I found myself asking for forgiveness again. Like Beth, I didn't feel any better. The more I confessed this sin, the worse I felt. Finally I realized what I was doing.
I was doubting God.
That sin was worse than the one I'd already received forgiveness for.
For whatever reason, sometimes we doubt God. We shouldn't. Satan has a way of reminding us that we are unworthy of the promises of God. Not just reminding us because I think maybe we should never forget that, but he makes us dwell in that unworthiness. When we dwell in that place for very long, we begin to doubt. Doubt causes us to become faithless in what God has already done.
God is the only one we can depend on. God always keeps His promises.
We should always accept His forgiveness even though we know we are undeserving. We should never forget we are undeserving as that can make us prideful and undermine God's authority.
Let us walk with heads held high. He has provided a way for us to be free of our sin. Praise God!