Monday, January 17, 2011

Day 8 - A Night of Nights

"But Mary kept all these things and pondered them in her heart." Luke 2:19

As moms, I don't think we will ever forget those first moments with our newborn.

When I held Colin for the first time, I couldn't believe the little miracle I was holding and that I was a mom.  With him being my first child, it was overwhelming and a bit scary.  I wasn't sure if I knew how to be a mom and care for a baby. All in all, the moment was perfect. With his chubby little self and squished little face, he was perfect, my little miracle from God.

Carson's birth experience was totally different.  The whole delivery was faster, yet the end result was  not what I expected.  As soon as he was born, the nurses let me hold him for about 2 seconds and rushed him out of the room.  He was having trouble breathing. Not the experience I expected.  Yet, when I finally got him in my arms, the moment was perfect: snuggling with him, caressing his dark hair, and kissing his cheeks. 

With Carter, we actually got to keep him in the room with us for some time before they took him to the nursery for observation.We had lots of skin to skin time and family time.  Again, a perfect moment in time.  Sharing the moment with my oldest sons was wonderful.

With each child, I had my own personal thoughts throughout each experience, thoughts of how miraculous and perfect the moment was.  I wondered if I would be the mom that baby needed me to be.  I wondered what the future would hold for us as a family and for that baby as he grew.  Like Mary, I kept these things to myself.

Unlike Mary, I did not give birth to the holy Son of God.  I'm sure some of those tender moments I shared with my boys could have possible been similar to Mary's first moments with Jesus, but a truly awesome journey was awaiting her.  She had become the mother of the Holy One.  No matter precious our moments were, they can't top hers. Mary was in a truly unique situation, one that would never be repeated.

My prayer for us today is that we would be obedient to our God.  That we would have open hearts to be able to hear what he would say to us.  I pray that we would allow him to have complete control of our decision making when it comes to our children.  Whether we are teaching a children, making special memories with them, or disciplining them, may we seek wisdom from him in being the Christian mothers our children deserve.  May our children see that Christ is the center of our lives so they may one day make him the center of theirs.


  1. Jesus, the Christ child, born pure and always to remain pure. Our children are also born pure and innocent only to be corrupted by this world. Please Lord give us the wisdom and strength to keep our children close to you.

  2. I can imagine that even the surroundings did not damper the event. Was there a glow around him? Did she even notice the animals around or was she so focused on his face and that this was the son of God that everything else just faded away.

  3. I remember when I had Alicyn how totally amazing it felt to be a know that God allowed Steve and I to create another life....and that little innocent tiny baby looked into my eyes and seemed to be able to see right into the depths of my soul. I'll never forget that. Now think about Mary....You know the newborn baby Jesus looked into her eyes. How much deeper did Jesus see into her soul? He was her tiny baby Son and the Savior of the world. Her Savior. I can't imagine what she must have felt.


Thank you so much for stopping by. I hope in some way I have blessed you. I look forward to reading your comment. I may not always get the chance to respond, but I do read every comment.