Wednesday, September 30, 2015

I have decided

I'm on journey.

We all are.

As a child of God, I'm on His journey, not mine.

Every once in a while, I get side tracked, knocked off course. I lose my way.

More than anything in the world, I want to be the woman God created me to be.

I became a Christian in 2004. I was almost 27 years old. I was a wife and a mom of a two year old. My life wasn't over night, but slowly, I started seeing the world differently, with the eyes of Christ.

Now, I'm not perfect.....NO! Not by any means, and I will NEVER claim to be.  I've got a long way to go before I am truly the woman God created me to be.

I struggle.

I have a bad temper.  I don't beat my kids or cuss my husband or anything.  I just yell. And ya'll, there's so many days where I just haven't liked myself because I yelled at my kids.  I reacted instead of responded.  Yes, there's a difference.

I have a time management problem.  I like blogging and Facebook and Pinterest and Etsy, and....well, you get the idea.  Before I know it, I can lose track of time and that causes the laundry and dishes to stack up, the school work not to get done, or the Sunday school lesson to get prepared an hour before church.

And there's this four letter F word that I have a problem  I like to eat.  Bread, Snicker's bars, scrambled eggs, watermelon, cantaloupe, macaroni and cheese, Big Macs, onion rings.......see. I like food and coffee, and Dr. Pepper.  Needless to say, I don't always make the healthiest choices.

I've also been know to get into gossip. I wouldn't call myself the town gossip. There's so many things I am totally out of the loop about, and sometimes, well, ignorance is bliss.  There are times, however, I have gotten into conversations I was not proud to be in.  Either I said some things that I wasn't proud of, I didn't stand up to someone for the things she said.

My friend, the list could go on.  Although I proudly call myself a Christian, I admit, I am sinner.  That's why I need Christ in my life.

So, I am on a journey.  I want to be the woman God has called me to be.  It isn't always easy, but I must make the effort.

And that brings me to this....

What journey are you on?

What is that you struggle with?  Is there a relationship that needs healing? Is there a habit that needs breaking?  Is there a lifestyle change in order?

I would love for you to work with me in getting back on track.  Let's join together in strengthening our relationship with Christ to become the women He has called us to be.

The first thing you can do is click HERE.  This is a simple, short survey that will show me the needs that women have, the areas in which they feel they can/want grow.

At the end of the survey, you have the opportunity to help me write my first book.  Yes!  I have decided to write my first book, but I can't do it alone.  If you would like to help (and you may remain anonymous, there will be an opportunity for you to do so.

Secondly, if you have decided to join in this journey, I will contact you with the specifics.

God has given us a life worth living.  This is our time to get back to basics and get back to our calling as Christian women.

I look forward to hearing from you.  Also, if you know someone who would like to join in or may appreciate this post, please share it with them.


  1. Sweet girl, we ALL need Christ in our life every minute of every day. We slip and fall, but we get up and strive to "do better" IN HIM. We are in this together, Natasha, and we must support one another. Keep joining in so we can encourage one another. xoxo

  2. I love your heart and honesty Natasha! I knew when we met at FMF Retreat that there was a connection that started because we are both teachers but it is more of a heart connection bound by our love of God. I am a sinner too and everyday is a day that I try to match my words and actions with who God calls me to be. I would love you to know that I pray for you and will continue to do so.

  3. Excellent post and honest!
    I yelled at my kids yesterday, and pretty much every day I yell.
    So that anger thing was my answer on your survey!
    Look forward to more from you sweet writer friend!

  4. What you've shared here has drawn me back every day since you first posted it, but I didn't quite know how to express how your words impacted me. I still don't, but I knew I wanted to at least try. First, thank you from the bottom of my heart for your transparency, your honest, your bravery in opening up about your journey and about your struggles. As I read your words, I felt a weight lift. Oh, I knew in my head that I'm not the only person who struggles with wasting time, with gossiping, who used to yell at her kids (mine are grown and out on their own now), but I've always sort of acted like I didn't do those things -- if you know what I mean. But it's time to stop the pretense of having it all together. Thank you -- and bless you -- for showing me that.

  5. I just love you, lady!! I love your honesty and compassion and I'm so excited for you and this journey you're starting!!! I'm on a journey too, and I'm happy to be walking it with you, my sweet friend!!

  6. I would love to walk with you on this journey... I see so much of myself in your post. I too react too often with yelling at my youngest child, and he's on the autism spectrum, so double up that helping of guilt!
    This year I have a very challenging class, and too many times they are able to get me to react... Yup, I need to join you on this walk


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